I Me Myself

Not long ago, I was asking everybody (as I usually do) a question - What is excellence? And if there exists anything like it, how do you measure it? And believe me, I never expected so much variance in the answer - ranging from that it’s a crap concept to fool people to its comparison with GOD (excellence personified). I guess I was not very keen at a concrete answer. It was a deeper fight which manifests itself in different forms time and again - What should I do in life? (I know it’s a rather heavy question to ask at this tender age ;), but can't help it). Should I compete for the material wealth (resources, as my friend puts it) or seek spirituality? Inspire people? Become a lonesome standing on a hill observing the valley of world? Or just be another "person"? (Btw, they are all very interesting things to do). If I assume free will and control, all the above would lie on the same indifference curve for me. But when I relax this constraint, things fall apart because I ...

I oppose reservation. But as always, I am not doing anything about it. Why? Simple reason - Apathy. I have got what I needed in terms of education from this country and the education of my 'children' is a long way to go. The dynamics might change (hopefully) and hence, I am not concerned right now. Another reason is Economics (I love Eco). Law of economics says that if there are economic profits in any area, more people would try to enter the area till the profits become zero. I am busy minting money (in the same country) and trying to enjoy the development (whatever) the politicians and diplomats are trying to achieve without any costs!!! There is ample scope of competitors and there are already a lot who have joined the bandwagon. What are you waiting for? Did I say costs? What can be possibly the cost of living in a country you were born in? I pay tax (man its cut at source, otherwise it would have been more profit) ... thats it!!! Rest the govt should take care ... if I am ...

It was past midnight when after finishing shit loads of paperwork, I went for a quick game of pool. As the balls started to roll, my colleague unwittingly asked a trite question "Do you always stay late in office?". I was in no mood to spare and pat came my reply "I never do anything always". He was taken aback by the reply and had no words to say. But I was quite amused by my reply. Do I really ever do anything always? I tried hard to find the answer, but no luck. No single emotion, ambition or work could hold my attention for long to qaulify as 'always'. I had no permanent habit, no everlasting faith. Either I am a loser or a wanderer (do I qualify as philosopher?). But what about you? Its a simple exercise. Try to find 'always' in any aspect of your life. And if you find one (you are lucky), answer another simple question - Does this 'always' in your life because you seriously want it, do not want it or just do it (like wearing nike)? And ...